Corona Diary: Day 37-40
The diary of a student who is no longer in school, following what this new virus means for us.
For the first couple of weeks, I had a clear schedule. I planned out exactly when I was going to do school work and writing and drawing and all the other things that I wanted to get done, trying to stick to it as much as possible. It meant that I felt as if I was being productive even when there wasn’t really much to do.
Then, for the holidays, I decided not to follow a schedule as there was no school work that needed to be done, instead just doing what I wanted. This was fun to start with, but I quickly realised that I’m fairly useless without a plan. I promised myself I would go back to my schedule once we had school work again.
The issue is that there still isn’t any school work to do and I still haven’t made a schedule. I said in one of my previous articles that it would take me a long time to get bored, which in hindsight seems like tempting fate. I’m bored. There’s lots to do, but I’m still very, very bored.
Nothing has really changed in nearly six weeks and, although I have so many projects and things that I want to do, I’ve found that I really don’t want to do anything. It’s a very strange situation. I want to do something and make the most of my time, but I also can’t motivate myself to do anything except wait for my daily exercise, a welcome breath of fresh air. There’s a strong possibility I’m turning into a dog.
I keep seeing things that remind me that I don’t have to be productive whilst we’re in quarantine, but that doesn’t help the fact that I really hate not being productive. All the while I’m not doing anything I feel like I’m wasting my time, and it’s got to the point where I might have to set myself a schedule of random tasks even though there’s no actual work to do.
by Lily Tibbitts